""My words they pour...

so here's a little about school:

my classes are alright, journalism is going to be fun where anthropology is going to be a pain in the ass.
I just read more poetry for my three hour class and I must say that the poet I am most taken with right now is Anne Sexton.

Actually, I have never heard of her before...well..that's a lie. I have heard her name mentioned. But this is the first time I have actually read her works. I would like to read more of her stuff and if anyone else knows any other poets worth reading, let me know!

there comes a time where i cant stand any of them:
mother, boyfriend, brother, teachers, managers, hell...even the dogs


they can all go choke

sooo yeah i'm still in aftershock
Disturbed/Slipknot aftershock

I remember when i thought i was cool and walked around in pants that were heavier than me
with all of the chains and studs on them
but i miss that sometimes

so, i decided to gage my ears.
with lime green earrings. yeah GO ME

so the final hoorah for summer at All Pets Club was this evening up at jerry's house
it was an amazing house too, by the way
view was spectacular
Nate was there 
once again he ignored me until i forced myself into is face
his response, giving me a hug
"I miss you nate"
"I miss you too"
"You never talk to me anymore"
"I'm sorry"
PSH. LIES. noyou aren't 
its been over a year get over it and move on


I talked to Jeannine about a possible job offer for myself
she is a registered Therauptic Riding Instructor 
after much thought I decided, Hey, I can see myself doing that on the side
I love horses, riding them, taking care of them, everything
so she's going to hook me up with some info about the school and courses she took
apparently it only takes 8 weeks (the shortest amount of time available) to be certified
maybe i will give it a try.....

 so i feel like complaining
yeah, i know i'm good at it
and this time around it's all things that have already been talked about

so here i sit, in my living room with no make up on
feeling like a bum

SO today i had my wisdom teeth pulled out
they even knocked me out and stuff
so i've been in and out of it all day

Brian came to keep me company
we were planning on going blueberry 
but since i can't eat anyting that isn't mashed....it would make me sad
so were gonna try to go on friday...

I still have to email the chair of the english dept
i might do that tomorrow morning
since its too late to hope for a response tonight
**makes mental reminder: email tomorrow EMAIL TOMORROW**

weve been talking about his friends who are coming to central this semester
looks like were going to be hanging out with one quite a bit
which is fine....really it is
((i know he's going to read this and potentially start an argument, HOWEVER you know we talked about this already so don't start))
three can be a crowd ... and quickly...sometimes
im not one to talk...my friends are always around
sometimes not by my choice 
im just....anticipating frustration
im not sure from whose end....
but damnit all batman, i can feel it ((the jokers better))

so i finally switched my major
to English...and im thinking of having a concentration in journalism
my parents are worried that i made the wrong decision
only because i put so much time into music
but perry even said that practicum was placed where it was so there was still enough time to switch if we didnt like teaching

and i didnt so i switched

they also think i wont get a career in english
im worried too
but that could be with any degree
im a hard worker so im not going to be overly worried about it now

i am relieved 
i went from 13 classes to 7 (hopefully if everything opens up) this semester alone
i still need to email the chair of the english dept........


YAY

 wanting to switch my major sucks...
not knowing what to switch to sucks even more

 so last night i finally got over myself and went to go see batman with dan and brian
i don't like batman movies....or anyother comic book hero for that matter
and after seeing the movie i realized...
....i still dont like batman

the joker, however, could show me a magic trick anytime
he was awesome. the end.
ive always been more of a villain person anyways.

one word to describe tonight:


wow


im shot.
and one of life's little lessons: slow and steady, easy does it, you dont have to run you know' cause slow and steady wins the race just keep it steady keep it slow.

 talked to dan today....
found out not only pete but now scott has said that they wouldn't mind banging me, if i were in a respectable position to
but pete has an STD, so ill be just fine with talking and occasional hugs
but since scotts married and im engaged, he respects me enough not to
however there are also 5 other girls he finds "do-able" at teh store
not to mention he is 15 years older than me (but hey, hes cute)

scott by far is my favorite person to talk to
very down to earth 
and he respects people too which is admirable. 
....however, he is also very horny, as it seems
his wife needs to come home from upstate NY soon i think
then hell be a happy boy